thoughts wander.

I have been thinking,
what if I didn't manage to get A this sem?
what if I can't get in the course that I wanted to be in?
what will I do next at the age of 20?
what if I manage to get in the course that I wanted?
will I really do what I intended to do last year?
will that determination even last?

Currently my main concern is still the 1st point,
which I think there's a high chance I won't. sigh.
damn it, just get it over and done with!

As for the 2nd last point,
I sort of calculated that if I really do, by the time
that everything ends, I will be like 28-30? lols ><

If I don't, will just lead the same life like everyone else.

feels old all of a sudden.